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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

The last night with the girls

Tonight I'm packing the girls' belongings. They go back to the orphanages tomorrow afternoon. They're going back with a lot more than they came with. The clothes I had brought for E and N will be going with them to the orphanage, along with the toys I brought to entertain them and the extra diapers and wipes. It feels so sad to have their little socks hanging on the radiator tonight. Myia just won't go to sleep. I think she gets it that somethings happeneing. There's still snow on the ground. About an inch. It's supposed to snow more tonight.

I know I signed up for this process, but this part sure seems cruel. I loved having them here at the apartment for the two weeks, and I knew this was the plan, but now that I have little faces and little hearts right here, it sure is going to be hard to walk away.

My kids at home are having a snow day. School is closed. I love to watch them outside in the snow. I hope there's some left when I get home on Sunday. And then in four days it will be Christmas. I am so not ready.

9 comments:

Shelley said...

Linda,
I'll be praying for you as you leave the girls tomorrow. I can not even imagine how hard that must be after having them with you for 2 weeks.

Amy said...

Hi Linda,
I'm praying for you during this time. It really is so difficult to leave them, I know. God Bless and praying for a safe travel.
Amy

Me said...

I'm sorry you have to let them go for a little while. I pray the waiting time to come back to them flies quickly. Have a safe trip home. Praying for you.

tammyand03 said...

Oh linda my heart is breaking at your sorrow. I am your coffee buddy but tonight you can call me your crying buddy. Yup instant tears at the pain in your heart at handing back your daughters as you get ready to make the trip home to your other children. Praying for you as you ready them for your return trip. Lots of love and hugs to you and know that we are all here for you.
Tammy RR

jkgelo said...

Linda I am sending as much positive energy and bright light as possible to you and to the girls. I am sorry that the protocol involves this separation. It will be good to see you when you get home and your wish for the snow may very well be a reality. We are getting snow tonight again, then supposed to be drier on Friday and Saturday with more snow to hit on Sunday possibly. see you soon. Julie

Alice said...

Prayers and hugs!

Carson's Mom said...

Linda, I am so sorry you have to leave the girls tomorrow. I pray the girls will be able to understand that you will be back for them. I also will be praying that the time will fly by.

Kayla

JUST A MOM said...

Linda-
Thanks for keeping things real and for opening up about your journey. Safe travels tomorrow. We will be praying for you.

Alison
(Tate's mommy)

Natalie said...

Hugs and prayers for you and the girls.