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Thursday, December 18, 2008

RR Friends again!

My dear RR friends. I got an inconsistent signal this morning (usually it's fairly reliable at night) long enough to read the comments on my blog to last night's post. I was doing so good until I read all your thoughts and empathy....now I'm crying again and I have court in an hour!
Last night I came back to the apartment, had a bowl of soup and laid down on the couch with CNN on - just to be able to hear some English!
I fell asleep and woke when Victoria from About A Child called at 9:00. I have to stop here and say that any of you starting the process with that Adoption Agency - especially with Victoria, will not be sorry. She has called me every day since I got here. She reads my blog and has followed along not only with me, but with the attorney and my facilitator/translator, Viktorija. I feel very well cared for by her.
After her call I started to feel the loss of the girls again and as I sat on the couch staring without seeing the tv, I felt His arm around my shoulders and I knew it would be ok. So I went to bed. I woke up at 5:30 like I always do and had that same feeling of peace until I read your comments. I so appreciate your support and empathy. Most people in my world don't understand why I had to do this. But I think they will all get it when they see these wonderful little girls.
And Lisa, I especially wanted to say, Yes, you're next coming here to get Little Dina. You will love the place and the people. and you will get through taking her back to the orphanage and then leaving. I think what's helped me is all the years of foster care and having to give back the children that have lived with me for several years. I know it's all part of the plan. This was harder, because I know these are my daughters and I want them with me.
And yes, I am single, and that does at some times make it more difficult, but I have the greatest Partner ever. He is with me whenever I need Him. When I was a little girl, the nuns would tell us to save a space next to us for our guardian angel. Now, I don't need an angel, because I have Him. And now I need Him to help me pull it all back together so I can go to court! Thanks again for all the love and support. I leave tomorrow to go home. "There's no place like home, there's no place like home..."

8 comments:

tammyand03 said...

Linda glad that you got some peace. Hope court goes well for you and that the girls will be able to come home to you soon. Have a safe trip home and we look forward to hearing from you to see how you are. You are in my prayers hun during this time. Hugs to all of you
Tammy

Alice said...

Prayers for a safe trip. It is wonderful when we can feel His arm around us. Don't forget He is still there even when we can't feel it!

THE CAMPBELL FAMILY said...

Linda, You are one tough lady!! You will be back soon for your little girls.We will pray everything goes smooth with court and your trip home. We pray for a speedy travel date to go back to get your daughters.
Jody

AZmomto8 said...

Linda, I am praying court went well this morning. Being away from our home and family makes things difficult, no matter how strong we are. ((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

Shelley said...

Thinking of you today. I hope that court went well and that you will soon receive that email with a date to return to Latvia.
I am so glad that you are feeling His comfort and peace. (((HUGS)))

Amy said...

Hi Linda,
Praying that court went well and for a safe trip home. The Lord will take care of your girls and hold them tight until you can come back to them.
Amy

Carson's Mom said...

I'm praying for a safe and uneventful trip home.

Kayla

MamaPoRuski said...

What an encouraging post for us too! So glad you are feeling His strength and peace!
We are in for 4-8" of snow and blizzard warnings in Seattle with up to 70MPH winds! I know you miss your kids, but not the weather!
Can't wait to hear how court went! God Bless!